It was this past weekend.
Okay, I'm 100% sure I'm not the worst mother but here's why I feel like it...
I started supplementing with formula. (GASP!)
I've cut back on pumping. I return to work next week. My supply is not keeping up with Hungry Hippo's demand. So, I'm adding formula to some of his bottles of booby juice during the day so I can extend the length of time he's getting BM.
Why do I feel so terrible about doing that? And how do I make this mommy guilt stop? Oh right, you don't. Ever. I imagine.
You know how else I know I'm not a horrible mother? If I were, I probably wouldn't have read Brown Bear, Brown Bear What do you See? to Babycakes over and over for 45 minutes because he loves it and it was the only thing that stopped him from having a meltdown tonight.
I kid you not.
Each time I closed the book, he would scream. Each time I opened it back up and started reading again, he cooed.
I love that little guy.